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Interview with with Jb

Many people fantasize about writing a book but it’s hard to stay disciplined enough to do it. Can you tell us a bit about the ways you held yourself accountable in making it happen? (I’m baiting a little bit about the Trump campaign donation/anti-charity but also would love to hear about your writing while traveling and how you made a space in your life to write).


I knew deep in my bones that I wanted to be a writer and that I had a story to tell. In the beginning all the details of life (eating, cleaning, working, paying bills, interacting with others, etc.) kept not only taking priority but also taking up all of the time that I had. I needed a way catapult getting words onto paper much closer to the top of the list. So when a screenwriter friend suggested I send him a check “in an amount that would hurt” made out to the campaign of a politician with a horrible track record for respecting women. I took the bait and went for it. My friend held the check in escrow and each month I’d check in to let him know that I’d hit my 10,000 word goal. He’d been asked to work on the campaign in question so I truly believed he would have deposited it if I hadn’t kept my part of the deal. By the time I was rolling through the second draft of MELTED I was so proud and happy with what I’d created, and my dream was so alive, that I didn’t need any other incentive to keep my creativity a priority.


 If your readers finish your book and walk away with one thought or take away, what do you hope it is?


I am whole and the horizon is bright. 


What is female sexual dysfunction? Can you tell me a bit about why you think it’s an important discussion?


Yes, Female Sexual Dysfunction (FSD) is an umbrella diagnosis doctors use to describe female patients who have lost interest or desire in sex, can’t relax the vaginal muscles enough to allow intercourse, have an inability to become aroused, are pre-orgasmic, or who have pain with intercourse. Approximately 43% of US women have some form of FSD and very few people are talking about it, seeking help, or getting accurate advice when they do reach out.  FSD is caused by a combination of psychological, physical, and cultural conditions. While the combination of these factors is unique for each woman there are some dominant contributing themes that include being taught that sex is shameful, that women who engage in it are somehow less valuable or pure, that women are the source of “original sin”, and the chronic fear of living in a society where sexual violence regularly goes unpunished. Everything from acute traumas such as rape and physical to the perception that sex is a duty or chore that has to be performed to please and stay in relation with another person can contribute to FSD. MELTED is about my transformational journey from believing I was totally broken in the sex department to understanding how my own choices and the culture around me impacted my body’s ability to feel and taking exciting (and sometimes hilarious) steps in the direction of healing.


What was your career/daily life like before you decided to take your journey into writing and trainings?


Before I dove headfirst into the adventure of healing and being a writer I was working full time as a renewable energy attorney. I would work so much that I couldn’t stand to look at screens after work so no writing was getting done. I was also in a relationship that repeatedly reinforced the story that there must be something wrong with me if my sexual appetite didn’t match up with that of my partner. Neither of us understood the concept and need for sexual healing or how to go about it. I still work part-time as a lawyer, have started my own company guiding women to reconnect with their vital capacity to thrive, and I’m in the process of creating the third draft of MELTED for my literary agent so that she can begin her negotiations with publishers. I have a lot of irons in the fire.


What compelled you to take your first training on the Sacred Feminine in Bali? What was this training?


After I learned about the nervous system and how living in a constant state of fight/flight or freeze had kept me out of the most pleasurable and creative parts of my body, I wanted to learn as many tools as possible for calming the nervous system, discharging shock/trauma, and reconnecting with my own body. I did an intensive Taoist Sacred Femininity training in Bali and a multi-year coaching program with the Tantric Institute of Integrated Sexuality. Both of the programs were an awesome combination of neuro-science and a spirituality that honors the human body as divine regardless of a person’s past or the impacts of dominant social conditioning.


What was the most important mental or personal change that you came away with after this training?


The most important personal change that I have come away with from my trainings so far is that I understand that my journey wasn’t just about figuring out how to enjoy sex, it was also about reconnecting with life and learning how to be a human in a human body. I wish that the things I learned through this process, such as how to sense and voice my own boundaries, how to process emotion, and learn to feel safe in a sometimes scary world, were taught to me and all the other children in kindergarten. 


What are three books, podcasts, poems or films that you think every woman should know about?


Come As You Are by Dr. Emily Nagoski – This excellent book translates the science of female sexuality into plain language and leaves its readers knowing for sure that there is nothing wrong with them, it’s just all the stories they’ve been told that are wrong.


Womens’ Anatomy of Arousal by Sheri Winston – Do you know about your vestibular bulbs? What about the urethral sponge? Winston demystifies all of the pleasure-related body parts that the school system forgot to teach us about in sex-ed.


The Body Keeps the Score by Dr. Bessel Van Der Kolk – This is not a light read, but it is a consummate resource for understanding the nervous system and the science behind all of the healing modalities that help resolve PTSD, childhood trauma, and the chronic trauma of living in threatening environments. 


What personal practice, piece of media (book, poem, podcast, etc.), or idea has most dramatically changed your life in the last two years?


I love waking up in the morning and saying “something astoundingly amazing is going to happen to me today” it sets the tone for unknown adventure (my favorite!) and has me paying special attention to the good things in life. A brilliant friend taught me this practice about two years ago and I’ve been doing it ever since.  


If you could go back in time and tell your 25 year old self something that you know now, what would it be?


I would teach her how to heal and work with her own nervous system so that she could perceive and address her own body’s clear call for help. 


Can you briefly describe what the book MELTED  is about? 


Inexplicably frigid and romantically demoralized, MELTED is the enthralling sequence of awkward experiments and delectable adventures I embarked on in an epic quest to reignite my own desire and reconnect with the primal vitality of life itself.


Looking back, why did you decide to write MELTED? 


Ever since I was a child I’ve always wanted to be an author and I always yearned for a meaningful quest to write about (I love epic fantasy and sci-fi!). About 4 years ago I had a moment of complete all-the-train-cars-line-up clarity - I was going to write my authentic and vulnerable story of navigating female sexual dysfunction. Looking back I realize I should have been more specific about what I wished for!